Goodbye my lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Chorus (2x)
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Chorus (2x)
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Chorus (2x)
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

i dont exactly like the song. my i love the lyrics=)

You're just not good enough.

Joy may be fleeting, but doubt and self-loathing are lifelong companions.

tired.

Healing

In the past years, I have tried to do everything to forget him. Booze and cigarettes became my best friends. I thought I was getting better and stronger, but everytime i came upon news on him, I kind of fell apart all over again. And then I found work, which kept me sane, kept me from having thinking too much.

2010, im glad and proud to say, im healing. Yes it took me almost two years to get over it. But im almost there. Never thought i could make it so far.

Bkk trip was off the hook!!

Amazing food, cheap shopping and lovely company. Needless to say, i had a blast.

And now its back to reality, back to work back to where it all started.

Happy new year to all lovlies

Since I have been really hard working in 2009(fyi I got a promotion!), i decided to reward myself with 2 awesome presents .

1.)bangkok trip with the awesome ladies.
2.)a new mobile phone.

Nope. I got neither blackberry nor iphone. I got a e71 (at a really awesome price!!!!). And its new, so why not?

Btw I'm blogging via the mobile now:)maybe its time I get a twitter account.

Pardon me for the lack of entries

Things have been so hectic this year that I have hardly had time to blog.

However despite the credit crunch I must say that i have the best year ever!

Just give me a break

And cut me some slack.

My luck is improving(I THINK)

Im thankful for having a great job.I’m hardly ever miserable at work. I’m thankful that not only do I have a good job, but I genuinely enjoy the people I work with.
Im thankful for things to look forward to. I have goals, big and small, on my list, both planned and yet to be, to be excited about.
Im thankful for The hard times: Because they've made me stronger and wiser, and the good times even better.
Im thankful for all the lovely ladies in my life. Ladies who I can count on, who care about me, and who want only the best for me.
Lastly Im thankful for all the blessings and good luck=)

2009 have been a really really REEAAALLLLy good year. And now I cant wait to see what 2010 have for me!!!!!

ZoukOut 2009!

SOOOO. anyway. with regard to my previous post. Headed down to zoukout despite the nasty rashes. HAHA who cares. everyone was high, i doubt they even notice my ugly rashes. Richie Hawkin was the bomb! And before anyone ask why not Armin since he is like the #1 DJ in the world, it was becos i headed back before Armin started playing(he was scheduled at 5am plus)!!! Yes, loser. But i cant help it! My foot KO-ed at aroung 5am, too much jumping. LOL

Zoukout was surprisingly fun(minus some usual issue)! The house music was phenomenal, the rnb sucks thou. but seriously, i wasnt expecting zoukout to be that fun. Reviews for the past few yrs haven been exactly good. Guess im just lucky!

Damn

Despite alrdy gotten the zoukout tix, I think im gonna give it a miss. My skin is suffering from the worst skin allegy ever. My arms, my legs my whole body. They are so raw, red and itchy=(

Every ending marks a new beginning

Im almost ready to spread my wings and fly.

Lost and not found.

Lost in transition, stuck in unsatisfactory circumstances, confused about my direction in life.

I started out so motivated and so full of drive. But now im not so sure. Im not even clear of my goal now. i cant see what is in front of me. I need to figure my way out of this.

I know i can definitely pull thru this, but the ultimate qn is when?

I think im about to cry.

Theres so many things in my head, i dont even know where to start. I think i ought to stop stressing myself out, stop trying to give 101% in everything and maybe from then i will learn to relax=(

YUMMMYYYY

The food were not only phenomenal, they are also my last feast before my diet.( which btw starts tmr) i have put on a hefty weight i know, so shut up. So anyway, diet starts tmr. back to calorie watching=((

me no like calories counting=((

Simple yet...

Its funny how something he said fits right into the empty place in my heart=)