Terrible

Annoying cough, runny nose, nasal congestion, sore throat and fever.

Love and peace are eternal.

I wonder why can't we just get all the people that we adore together and then just stay together? And i figure that maybe its because deep inside us we all know that that wouldn't work because eventually someone would leave, someone always leaves and then we have to bid good-bye.

Wed was a absolutely fantastic night, except that I was rejected entry at zouk earlier part of the night. The bouncer stamped a rejected chop which by the way was hilarious. Ok long story short, i didnt have my id and my ez link card wasnt accepted( which he say doesnt look like me). I rushed home to get my passport in the end. Anyhow, later of the night was amazing. No stupid guy to ruin the fun, awesome.

I really hate good-byes you know. And i know what I need. I need more hellos.

I really wish I was more cheerful as a person.

Why do we suffer? Why do i think so much? Why cant i smile more? Why do people judge? Why do people die? Why am i living? Why am i such a emo bitch? Why am i so pessimistic?

These questions are depressing I know. And i really wish that I was more cheerful, it will be more pleasant.

* and on a side not. Im craving slICE and sashimi. hello babes, meet up soon!!!

Some serious wedge love.

My life has been pretty mundane for the past few weeks. All i do is get up, go to school, sit there and wait for it to end, come back, surf the net then sleep and the cycle continues. Seriously in need of some excitement in my life!

Oh ya, did i mention that im sick? Yeah, im sick. Down with a cold, a terrrible one. I didnt want to torture myself further with tasteless food so i had fish curry and a packet of peanut buttercup for dinner=X



*Received these babies today, i reeled back in shock when i saw them. Im like, say 10cm taller now? And despite the possibility of these babies breaking my ankle, i absolutely adore them=))

Just do it.

Because every day you wait is another day you won't get back again.

Best solution to a clear mind.

I had a really great run this morning. All the way from my house to Lot1( choa chu kang) and back again. I love how the wind blow against my face, how the day slowly sets in and the midnight blue turns to lighter blue as vibrant colors start seeping into the sky.

Probably one of my best run in a long time=)

Emo is my middle name.

Im 19 and i feel that a part of me have already given up on the idea of love. After seeing how the marriage of my parents ended up, how my past relationships ended up. People say that love is total trust in another person. But the problem is how can one fall in love again if she don’t trust anyone, or even trust herself anymore? My idea is that love is pointless, and all that it leads to is pain.

And they told me that im too young to lose hope. I just got to keep on believing that there may be love and donte stop seeking it.

Breaking out.

The truth is, im not exactly looking forward to being in the big wide world. The good news is i will be earning my own money but the whole idea of starting all over again, alone, in a unfamiliar environment scares me. How do i deal with people with underlying motive? Why do they do that? How do i protect myself from them?

I know that I'll be fine, eventually. Now, i need to start breaking out of my comfort zone and learn to adapt to whatever that will be coming my way.

We hugged and we cried.

Yesterday was really an eventful also known as drama night. I dunno what led to the " intervention" but im glad and really grateful. Rachel stayed over at my place after partying.

And oh yea, im over and done with shaun. hello new chapter.

Dont be afraid.

Its always scary to put myself out there. But i know that if i let my fears and past bad experiences rule how im going to live, my life we would be in a stagnant position. And often i find it really hard to know when to let myself become a bit vulnerable without being too vulnerable so thus im telling myself to take it slow because good thing only comes to those who wait.

And after all, im only 20.

Sometimes i wish.

Sometimes I wish I could fast-forward time but again i never would because life is too short as it is.