On a side note

To ask or not to ask.
To tell or not to tell.

These are the questions.

Communication is the foundation to a good relationship. And if communication is the key then its also the last thing i wish to change in my relationship.

All is good in my rs and i wish to keep it that way.

Its the pms, i hope:(

2.30am and still awake.

Makes me wonder if it was the tea or there's just an overflowing of things in my mind. Or maybe its just the pms.

=(

Underwater

Ever tried breathing underwater? U can only hold ur breathe for that long before u start sinking..

And thts exactly what im feeling right now.

In the arms of an angel...

Life is just so short and unfair..

He is only 23 yrs old... He still hve yet to do so many things.. What about his family... His friends.. His goals..

He will always be remembered as the one to being us joy and laughter.

Tai seng, u will be missed. Thank you for the 16 yrs of memories.I hope that you are in a better place right now.

Say what?!?!

I love him

Wow, and so we have met each others family. Thats really fast i know. But everything just fall so nicely into place and there's simply no excuse to not go with the flow.
 

Fallen

Too right, too fast, too soon?

Indeed a blessing in disguise

This time, it might just be the one i have been waiting for...

Everything happen too fast and i was taken aback by my feelings as well..

I feel different this time round.. In a good way:)

Some things gt t be said...

All of that was a long time ago. Some of its hurts, some of it doesnt. It all mattered then. A lot.

But its gone now.. All of it..

Love me if u dare.....

Becos im afraid? Bcos i cant get myself broken once more? Bcos i know that i might b able to withstand yet another blow?

I back away.. I always do... This is one thing, one risk i wouldnt dare to take...

And might just b the one that break me down....

Be patient and tough

You will never realize your true strength until being strong is your only option left. 
Until you are broken,
you won’t know what you’re truly made of.

Bitter love

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.- Mika, Happy ending

Out of reach

Knew the signs
Wasnt right
I was stupid for awhile
Swept away by u
And now i feel like a fool
So confused
My heart's bruised
Was i ever loved by you.....

Ironic..

We drift away for a reason.. Not because i moved on with other friends.. But bcos:

1.)im sick of ur boys issue.. Same issue different boys.. For godsake, u r not 18yrs old anymore
2.)stop thinking tt u r always right.. If so, stop asking me to make decision for u
3.)lastly, it will b awesome if u can take ur bossiness somewhere else...

Somone once told me to surround myself with who i want to be.. And thats why we drifted...

Damn...

Sometimes u rlly just expect the older people to b more mature...

Shut the eff up and get over it... Seriously...

Nothing is worse than.....

A stingy guy...

Theres a fine line between being thrifty and stingy.... I mean c mon!!

For u....

Lust is temporary, romance can be nice, but love is the most important thing of all. Bcos without love, lust and romance will always b short-lived...

Trapped in this whirlwind of emotions

I feel that im screaming at the top of my voice
but no one can hear me...

Cant afford to fall back into the old me..
I have too much to lose now..

Why?

If u rlly care about my feelings, u wouldnt have done all those things despite me telling u how i felt...

Why care now when the damage has been done? Repeatedly...

This marks the end...

Peyton sawyer once said "every song has an ending.. But is there any reason not to enjoy the music?"

And so... I've finally plucked up all the courage i have and finished the final season of one tree hill... And yes.. I bawl my eyes out..

I was in sec sch when i started on the show.. It've been 9 solid years.. The show brought me so much tears and i really grew up with the show! I find myself connecting with brooke( yes go ahead n laugh).. The love, the betrayal, the family issue and etc. They are just so close to me..

One tree hill, its finally the end and its been an incredible one:) Mark Schwahn, u r one hell of a producer..

Always...

Pulling away is what i always do..

Dont, just dont..

When your "I Miss You" stresses me out..

Promises

For better or for worse,
For richer, for poorer,
In sickness and in health,
To love and to cherish...

How many actually fulfill these promises...

Where do we go from here?

Can we ever delete someone off our heart, just like how we are able to delete them off our contacts..

One way to not get ur heart broken is to pretend you dont have one- charlie sheen

Women..

Is it really necessary for a girl to close one eye..

And so I asked my dad, if it is ok for a married man to visit those sleazy places. He say it depend on the line of work. And visiting sleazy pubs doesnt mean that he will have to slp with the girls there. Of cos it still comes down to the key word "trust". In which, trust is earned n not given. So yeap..

I have my own set of relationship beliefs.. Bottom line is that I dont wan to be the girl to wait at home and not knowing the wherebout of my partner. I dont wan to know things from a third person.. I dont control, i just want to know.. Its not difficult isnt it?

It pains me knowing that my twin is going thru this and i dont know what to do to help becos im nt married or rather im nt even in a relationship. So who am i to give advice?

Trust n faith

The moment that you start questioning a person's genuineness is the moment that you should do yourself a favor & cut them out of your life.

I.need.a.hug

Dont wan to know, dont wan to ask because i dont wan to care.

When you stop caring, you stop hurting.

Top 5 regrets

Bronnie Ware, a nurse who works with the dying, has recorded the top five regrets people have on their deathbeds.

1. "I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me." Bronnie notes that most people felt they wasted their healthy youths, and were remorseful for not taking advantage of the things they were able to do.

2. "I wish I hadn't worked so hard." Ware says she heard this from every male patient she nursed. Since her patients tend to be from an older generation where many women didn't work, it's not surprising.

3. " I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings." Apparently some of Bronnie's patients became ill from resentment and anger they had from unexpressed feelings. And "as a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming."

4. "I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends." Many patients regretted losing touch with good friends, who they were unable to track down and contact in their final days.

5. "I wish that I had let myself be happier." While letting oneself be happy should be easy, work, relationships and general life can bring us down. Sometimes it's worth stepping back and examining what's actually worth getting upset over. 

Yet another realization

I was off to the gym. And as i was rushing for time, i reached for the nearest pair in the shoe cabinet. the hot pink pretty asics running shoes..

I knew the pair of shoes were a tad small but i didn quite care.. It was the last pair in the store and i really liked it.

My toes were squashed and painful at the end of the gym session.

In a nut shell, u can by all means squeeze your size 7 feet into a size 6.5 shoes. But at the end of the day it will just hurt ur feet.. And you will be the one hurting..

Fall in love whn u r ready, not whn u r lonely..

Better to be alone, than with the wrong guy isnt it?

Afterall if something is meant to be, it will happen. At the right time, w the right one and for the right best reason..

Choose wisely.

A first..

A guy who can cook, is equally sexy as a guy who plays bball.

Sexy...

Love is like a rose..

Whn you have it in your grasp, you have to bare the thorns.

Needs to be more emotional connected, just slighty perhaps.

My wisdom tooth is hurting the hell out of me, and so is my inflammed throat.

Phobia

Philophobia: Fear of falling in love or being in love.

Maybe?

Tough week and its only tuesday.. Suffered a serious case of food allergy on sunday. Freaked out when it spreaded to my face. A really painful jab and the hives are more or less gone.

Been really weak recently, 3 doc visits in a month.. Im sure the doctor recognized me already.

Have been partying the past few mths, time to take a break again. No more festive season as an excuse:p

Reminders

Don’t be exclusive unless he is too, if you aren’t his one and only then don’t make him yours. Keep your options open.

Dont give more than u receive.

Don’t be with someone who doesn’t want to be with you.

"Another one of those things that sounds obvious, but we often forget when we’re caught up in the turmoils of our relationships.  Don’t date someone who doesn’t want to be with you.  The person you are with should always, ALWAYS want you by their side.  Not only when things are good, and not only when things are convenient.  If there is any situation where the boy you date indicates that you are not his best alternative, kick him to the curb.  I guarantee that there is someone else who would love to have you in his company."

We Three (my echo, my shadow and me)

I don't quite like the person i've became lately, or i think i've become..

Those values that i used to stand strong and practiced are being stacked away now. Maybe its time to rethink about the beliefs i used to hold firmly.