Now what?

"Its not that i dont trust you, but its your heart tat i dont trust"
"But isn't that what you signed up for"

And that's what my friends been telling me. As much as i wan to deny it, its true in every possible way. Most of the time I try my very best to not ask question that i already know the answer, but sometimes, even the mere 0.01% gives me hope, gives me a reason to stay and a reason to fight on.

I know exactly wat shit im getting myself into, but maybe im used to the pain r/s brings me. It makes me feel alive and not dead.

"You love the heart that hurts you, hurt the heart that loves you", cliche yet so true.